It's so freaking hard not to what if everything in my life.
WHAT IF...
- I really never get pregnant?
- the only way I'll get pregnant is IVF?
- my life is empty and meaningless without the kids I've always dreamed of?
- I can't ever get over not having kids?
- I never plan to do anything again because I "might be pregnant then..."?
- I spend every last dime and go into debt and still can't get pregnant>
- I can never be happy for acquaintances pregnancies again?
- my SIL and BIL have kids before me?
- I feel so empty for the rest of my life?
- my heart is never whole without babies?
- ... what if?
