Most of February has been emotionally good for me. We did an oral medication this cycle. It's similar to Clomid. It's called Femara.
And, what's done is done. I've taken all the meds. We've BD'd all the right days. Now we just see what happens.
Today, though, I'm feeling uneasy. Like it's going to be just another cycle like every other. We have one little egg. Will it be the one? Can that little one fertilize, and nest in, grow and be our baby?
I'm feeling quite disconnected from this whole process this month. I'm pretty sure we won't be able to cycle very much longer, if at all. Our money well has nearly dried up completely.
So now what? I don't know.
In positive news, we've found a church we are totally in love with. Which is really refreshing because it has been very difficult to find any sort of church around here.
Anyhow, I'm CD 16 and it won't be long until my heart is broken once more. Today, I have obviously lost faith.
God, what is your plan? How do I find it? Tell me what to do and I'll do it.
