We're are on babymaking hold whilst Hubby pursue's a new career. Well, while he is training for said new career. The new job has IVF benefits, so we are pretty darn lucky.
I am thankful. But I've had to set my dream aside for the time, and it hurts, but I'm okay with it. I still ache when I see a swollen belly, or when I get lonely (Hubby is busy for a while for training). Last year, I never would've imagined that we'd be able to do IVF, but now it seems reachable.
But that ache. I don't feel it all day, I don't feel it every day. But I feel it sometimes and I know our baby is missing. So I pray that God keeps that baby in His arms until it's time to be with Mom & Dad.
For now, I've got Gus. Me & Gus; Gus & Me.
It really is a hard pill to swallow; the one that life isn't exactly how you imagined it would be. But it's okay. I know there is much more awesome in our future. I am so very grateful for the awesome we've already had.
One day at a time.
